Our Family Ramblings!

The next step in our "jog down memory lane" starts.... Since I had the miscarriage I was very anxious about finding out about this new baby. I wanted to make sure that he/she was okay. I just wanted to see a heartbeat! So, my OB had me do a very early ultrasound. Boy was that a bad move! Well, I did get to see the heartbeat. The relief shot through my body like a freight train which then that freight train hit me in the stomach with fear, denial, anxiety and a "what the heck?" There were TWO! Two babies! I thought the Lord was being funny at first, but then I thought He was giving me back the baby I had lost.

What am I going to tell my husband? Oh, my mom will be thrilled. Wholey Cow, how am I going to do this? At this time my kids were 9 and 6. They can help! It won't be so bad. I can do this... gulp!! I didn't think I would go from 2 to 4 in the blink of eye! Since I was listed as high risk, I had to get ultrasounds frequently. The next one was in two more weeks!

In the meantime, we had called a family meeting to tell the kids about the baby/potential babies. My princess was beyond excited. My son... started to cry, got up, yelled "this meeting is over" and stormed out of the room. Imagine my mouth dropping. Then imagine his reaction when I said it may be 2 babies. WOW... My boy has panic/anxiety problems to begin with. He doesn't like change. It takes him a while. That is another wonderful reason the Lord gives us 9months.

That next ultrasound shook me to the core. Baby A was doing great and right on target. Baby B wasn't developing at the same pace. We needed another ultrasound in another week. That week's ultrasound set the pace for the next 9 months. Baby B had no heartbeat and was developed 3 weeks behind baby A. So we were now back to one Baby. I was okay with this. I had a indescribable peace. Now I was just focused on the best way to get Baby A here safely. So what will become of Baby B? Here is the next devastating thing. Both babies were sharing the same placenta. If Baby B doesn't just absorb into the body, it will attempt to abort. That process will take the placenta with it,Thus taking my precious baby A with it. We would need another ultrasound in another week to determine the fate of both babies. That week was terror, torture, and nauseating. I came home with the ultrasound picture in hand and met my friend at Starbucks for a good cry! What was the Lord doing to me?

My final ultrasound- until week 22 -was a breath of fresh air. Baby B had absorbed. Baby A is right on target and the hearbeat is strong. What a fighter!! (I look at "monkey" today and thank her for fighting so hard!!) I ran home to tell everyone that we were having a baby. My son was so happy to hear that it was ONE baby! Now just to get over the sex hurdle!! We found out that "monkey" was a girl. We were all there for the ultrasound. My princess again was exstatic! My boy didn't have an emotion. I think he secretly was happy for the girl. He wouldn't have to share his room. :o)